There's nothing funny about a clown in the dark

Mood: Abel, not Cain
Song: Superman's Dead - Our Lady Peace
Wine: Aticama's Merlot (currently trashed on this vice - forgive my syntax)
Sobriety: Ted Kennedy

Relatively close to my house, there exists this large tree. The top of this tree resembles a hot air balloon... Tons of branches and leaves, and the upper half looks extremely healthy.

Heres the thing (ya see)....

The very bottom of the tree, about two feet above the ground is rotted out. Not just a little, but over three quarters of the tree trunk is completely gone. Big top, little to no bottom....

So, I drive by this tree almost every day. It happens to be on my main route to everything (work, shopping, entertainment, etc).... So, in a nutshell - I see this tree all the time. Every time I drive by, I make it a point to see if the tree is still there. When it is, I think.... "That sucker is not gonna make it much longer".... I have been thinking this for three years now. Many storms have passed (claiming many trees, trash recepticles, house siding, and I actually saw a trampoline and 12' boat in the middle of the road). Anyhow... The tree still stands...

Strong
Persistent
Stubborn

Fuck you for thinking it wouldn't last.

I love seeing that thing every morning and every evening....

Insidious Intent

I wanted only to try to live in accord with the promptings which came from my true self.
Why was that so very difficult?

To plagiarize a good friend www.livejournal.com/users/beardofbees (enjoy), and share my mood (which you could just ascertain from tone and context of my ramblings) and other tangibles…
Mood: Cain, Not Abel
Song: Swing Life Away – Rise against
Wine: Firesteed Pinot Noir


June 24th – 25th I spent in Kalamazoo/Battle Creek. Rode Fort Custer Biking Trial (red trail for roller coaster atmosphere – and green trail for two fun downhill sections where you rocket through a creek bed). On the way home, I stopped off at Grand River (Burchfield) in East Lansing and rode a hell of a fun trail for the first time. Highly recommend!

Due to my stupid loyalty at a job I hate, I have to delay my trip to bike in WI and MN… FUCK!
I am now leaving 5 days later that I want… I know if I tried to brainwash myself into “screw it, im going anyway” – I wouldn’t be able to NOT think about how I should be at work. Whas up with that? I find myself being angry at those who have no loyalty and look out for just themselves. I want to be like that…Cant bring myself to it…